Let's go through it point by point:
1. Benny turned 5:
2. He got a lot of the items on his wish-list:
|You can't tell, but he's also chewing gum in this photo|
3. Then school started:
|Kindergarten (climbing up into that big bus for the first time = brave) and 3rd Grade (starting with a new teacher and best friend is in the class next door = brave)|
|8th Grade and 6th Grade, both starting at new schools = brave|
4. And, finally, I had my salad:
|Confronting something that was so important to me, but without Sue to share it with = brave|
Notice that I am eating the salad with two forks. This is because the day after Sue's funeral, her youngest said, "So my mom never got her salad? Well when you go get the salad, will you eat it with two forks, one for you and one for my mom, and take a picture of it for me?"
Of course I will, Sweetie. And I did.
It is difficult for me to put into words how hard and emotional it was to eat the salad. The situation wasn't how it was supposed to be, and I am definitely mourning that. But I also felt like I had really reached an important milestone, and like it took a lot for me to face the salad day head-on. I feel like I've accomplished something big just by making it through.
I'm proud of myself and I will keep being brave. If my kids can get up each day and face their school fears, then I can certainly face my life-without-Sue fears.
Next up this month: becoming the mom to a teenager in just 16 more days (I'll need to face this one bravely as well! Eeek!)